May 1st 2019, age 20! So far my experiences with men has been limited. Apart from that one guy who will remain nameless I haven’t really done a great deal with men. My friends say I need to put myself out there more but I’m too shy, surely there is an easier way to find Mr right then by picking up randoms at the bar?
I need to do something though, this urge that I have deep inside, needs to be released. I just want someone that will treat me like a princess but for some strange reason I kinda of want to be fucked like I’m a porn star, surely there is something wrong with me right? I haven’t told my friends that I’ve been thinking this way, it’s not normal and I’m scared what they may think of me.
May 4th, still aged 20! So it’s been a few days and still no action, maybe the girls are right about putting myself out there? I’ve agreed to go out with them Friday night, apparently I won’t regret it and yet I already feel as though I do.
May 5th, fuck why did I agree to go out tomorrow night with them? What do I wear, how do I prepare myself for possible random sex, omg this was a stupid mistake, maybe I should just call and cancel, tell them I’m sick, they can’t force me to go after all but then again I kind of do what so human interaction. Maybe I should go buy a new dress and go to the salon for a little grooming, that’s a better idea, I’ll do that!
May 6th, well it’s Friday, time to party bitches, yay (Said sarcastically). Tell me again why I’m doing this? Fuck, fuck, fuck I need to back out, I can’t do this, why do I feel like there is so much pressure on me to go out and get laid? I swear the girls never even mentioned men and yet it’s all I keep thinking about! What the fuck is wrong with me? Ok diary I’m going to frock up, have a little pre-drink before we head out and just enjoy the night with my friends, no men needed, I’ll let you know tomorrow how it went!
May 7th, omfg where do I even start? So last night after pre drinks we headed into the city, I swear we just went from bar to bar, from drink to drink and shots we had so many! Maybe it was a good thing though because I didn’t seem to be in my own head stressing, I was just having a blast, dancing and laughing it was great.
It was around midnight and we were at this one bar, I don’t recall the name of it, it was dark and seedy looking, and had this vibe about it that I can’t quite explain but I liked it. Anyway I was at the bar grabbing the next round of drinks and this beautiful man court my eye, omg fuck he was hot and I stared at him, maybe a little too long coz he turned and noticed me watching him, I felt my face burn red and I quickly looked away and scurried off with our drinks.
While I sipped my cocktail, there he was again, I could see him from across the room, I studied every part of him. He had dark hair, not too short but not at all long, just long enough I could run my fingers through it and grab hold of. Those eyes, dark, deep brown, a strong jaw line with just a thin layer of facial hair. Further down I could see every muscle in his body through his tight fit clothes and boy was I impressed fuck what I could do
to you! I must have been really drunk by that point because I wasn’t even ashamed of myself for thinking those things lol.
Anyway so the girls and I had a few more drinks at this bar and were trying to decide if we should leave, have a few more then go home or continue on to another bar. Then off I go to the toilet again, this breaking the seal business is a real thing, I just constantly needed to pee!
This time on the way to the toilet, I had this strange feeling like I was being followed, I just figured I must have been drunk, I went in did my wee and came out to wash my hands. As I looked up from the sink, there he was, my handsome stranger, standing before me. I didn’t feel scared, I knew I should have but it was strange I felt excited. I stood there quiet for a moment and then he said “I’ve seen you watching me, have you noticed me watch you though”, I didn’t answer, I was just mute, like I was frozen in time but my face answered for me blushing red hot.
Fuck what was happening, I had no clue, again I just stood there. Then he grabbed me, his right hand cupped the side of my neck and pulled gently at my hair, his left hand on my waist and he pulled me in close. I was hungry for his touch. He kissed me hard and I liked it. He pulled me close into his body and I could feel by his bulge his was hungry for me too.
With one quick movement he lifted me up onto the bench, pulled my knickers off and I thought he was going to fuck me right then and there but instead he pulled my waist to the edge of the bench and started to kiss me again, this time softly and his kissing moved down my neck to my waist and before I knew it he was kissing me there! I had never had anyone kiss me there before, it was different but good different I didn’t want him to stop.
As his tongue pressed firmly against my clit and rolled in circular motions I could feel it swell against him. I had this strange feeling wash over me, like I was having some kind of fit. As he continued to kiss and suck it, my excitement intensified, then he slide two fingers inside me and before I could stop it I was peeing on him, omg I was so embarrassed but he seemed to love it and was licking my pee, I didn’t quite understand that but I was too drunk or too happy to care.
Next thing he grabbed me down off off the bench, turned me around and bent me over it facing the mirror, fuck it was hot. I heard his zipper and I got hungry and with anticipation. And before I could think any more he was deep inside me, omg that felt so good. He pounded me hard with his rock hard cock, harder and harder, over and over. Shit I started peeing again and he is loving it, telling me he loves it when my come drips down his balls, wtf does that even mean? Anyway we go at it hard for what feels like eternity but probably more like 10 minutes then he zips up his pants, kisses my cheek, smiles and before I know it had left.
Wtf just happened? I quickly left the bathroom and went back out to my friends, who by this time had noticed me missing, I just blushed at their questioning and asked if we decided to call it a night yet?
Omg diary that was the second man Ive slept with but this time it was different. He woke something in me and I like it! And this peeing on him business and him saying he likes my come on his balls, I need to some how research what the fuck that was all about. I guess I could ask my friends, but I feel about weird telling them I pissed on a random stranger and he loved it. Anyway I’m out for the week, until next week diary later! 💋